I think there is just something about... holding your hand out to someone and thinking you are walking the same path, only to find out that it's been diverging all along.
... Yeah. Looking back, maybe it was naive of me not to realize that Samura-san and I weren't walking the same path. [the irony is that their clash is born from the same root—having no attachment to life left but their guilt. just the way it's manifested is so, crucially different.] But for as long as I've known him, he was never one to let others in.
... Right now, assuming I don't return, the only Enchanted Blade that the Hishaku can use is Kumeyuri, but someone wielding an Enchanted Blade for the first time would stand no chance against him.
And one of Samura-san's specialties, through Tobimune, is detecting the use of spirit energy, so it's highly unlikely they could assassinate the other Sword Bearers and activate the other Enchanted Blades behind his back. He'd probably just kill them on the spot if they tried.
[ they supposed that is some sort of blessing, if the other group were also enemies, but this still doesn't really seem like a positive that someone who is that strong is planning on killing all of your friends. ]
The other Sword Bearers? I haven't had any contact with them since before we went into hiding. Even with Samura-san, this was the first time I'd seen him in years.
But I imagine with Samura-san going rogue, the Kamunabi will increase security or change their hiding locations.
... It wasn't how I was expecting to die either. [who actively thinks they're going to die via betrayal, really.] But all we can do is proceed forward, even if it's not a happy path.
[knowing that if he manages to return to life, most likely he and samura will clash again, and the "best" scenario is...]
If nothing else, I'd rather spare Rokuhira-san's son from having to cut Samura-san down.
Chihiro. I didn't know of his existence or meet him until recently—I think he was born around the end of the war? But it meant that Rokuhira-san wasn't alone during his years in hiding.
He's a good kid. You can tell he's his father's son.
He's the wielder of an Enchanted Blade—the seventh and final one that Rokuhira-san created after the war. So he's one of the only people who remotely stands a chance against Samura-san.
[but, like, barely. pragmatically uruha, if he can get back kumeyuri, would be a better option just for that reason alone.]
I believe that he could steel his resolve and do the deed. But from the sound of it, he grew up hearing stories about us, the Sword Bearers, from his father. He shouldn't have to.
... that's understandable. The youth really shouldn't be forced into these sorts of things. They get robbed of what should be a meaningful time for them.
... His sake is what I want to return for, most of all. And so that the people who died for me won't have their sacrifices be in vain.
[survive for as long as he needs to, so that they'll be remembered as heroes who gave their lives to protect japan, and not the idiots who died pointlessly for someone who wasn't worth it.
...]
Once that's settled, though... like you, there isn't much else I need to do, I suppose.
[which is not something he admits outright to most, if anyone else at all here. but he gets the feeling that saber, of all people, is not about to be like YIKES THAT'S A MENTALLY UNWELL WAY TO THINK SIR.]
[ it took me rereading my previous tag to realize you weren't saying he wants to return for alcohol because i had forgotten what i had written.
but saber will simply nod at that because, honestly? it's like that. saber still remembers their previous conversation about trying to live life peacefully once the fighting is over, and the struggle that comes from being forced to adapt. ]
but, well. yeah. if you devote your existence to a greater cause, the harsh reality is that you're inherently someone with no place in it once it's achieved. that's probably something they can both understand.
also this is a great question that i don't have a canon answer to but given that uruha never mentions any/they are clearly not enough of an incentive to want to live—]
[which is probably the mindset that created this quandary in the first place, but at this point, what's left but to focus what you're good at, rather than trying to fit a square into a round hole...]
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[ life was easier when they just really liked swords. ]
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a little nod.]
Convictions are par for the course for what we do. ... Just the reality is that your beliefs may not be the same as those you care about, it seems.
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I think there is just something about... holding your hand out to someone and thinking you are walking the same path, only to find out that it's been diverging all along.
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[ since it sounded like the other group they have to be concerned about are fairly powerful? ]
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And one of Samura-san's specialties, through Tobimune, is detecting the use of spirit energy, so it's highly unlikely they could assassinate the other Sword Bearers and activate the other Enchanted Blades behind his back. He'd probably just kill them on the spot if they tried.
So I do think his odds are good.
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[ they supposed that is some sort of blessing, if the other group were also enemies, but this still doesn't really seem like a positive that someone who is that strong is planning on killing all of your friends. ]
What about the others?
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But I imagine with Samura-san going rogue, the Kamunabi will increase security or change their hiding locations.
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This really is a difficult situation. I did assume you had died in battle, but...
[ not like this. ]
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[knowing that if he manages to return to life, most likely he and samura will clash again, and the "best" scenario is...]
If nothing else, I'd rather spare Rokuhira-san's son from having to cut Samura-san down.
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[ believes uruha is the main character because of bias ]
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he nods, a fond touch to his expression.]
Chihiro. I didn't know of his existence or meet him until recently—I think he was born around the end of the war? But it meant that Rokuhira-san wasn't alone during his years in hiding.
He's a good kid. You can tell he's his father's son.
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It would fall to him then, though? Do you think he could handle it, if it came to ti?
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[but, like, barely. pragmatically uruha, if he can get back kumeyuri, would be a better option just for that reason alone.]
I believe that he could steel his resolve and do the deed. But from the sound of it, he grew up hearing stories about us, the Sword Bearers, from his father. He shouldn't have to.
[to kill someone he thought to be a hero.]
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[ but alas... shounen loves child soldiers... ]
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I don't think he'd have even set down this path if his father hadn't been murdered... so you're right.
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... and, of course, for your own.
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[survive for as long as he needs to, so that they'll be remembered as heroes who gave their lives to protect japan, and not the idiots who died pointlessly for someone who wasn't worth it.
...]
Once that's settled, though... like you, there isn't much else I need to do, I suppose.
[which is not something he admits outright to most, if anyone else at all here. but he gets the feeling that saber, of all people, is not about to be like YIKES THAT'S A MENTALLY UNWELL WAY TO THINK SIR.]
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but saber will simply nod at that because, honestly? it's like that. saber still remembers their previous conversation about trying to live life peacefully once the fighting is over, and the struggle that comes from being forced to adapt. ]
Mm. [ ... ] Any family?
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but, well. yeah. if you devote your existence to a greater cause, the harsh reality is that you're inherently someone with no place in it once it's achieved. that's probably something they can both understand.
also this is a great question that i don't have a canon answer to but given that uruha never mentions any/they are clearly not enough of an incentive to want to live—]
None worth mentioning.
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but that's fair, and the answer doesn't surprise them, all things considered. ]
Unsurprisingly, death does not bring us any answers, huh?
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Mm. All we can do is focus on what we need to do.
[which is probably the mindset that created this quandary in the first place, but at this point, what's left but to focus what you're good at, rather than trying to fit a square into a round hole...]
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[ they look around. ]
Come, let's try to get out of here.
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Yeah, can't say I love it here. Let's go.