... His sake is what I want to return for, most of all. And so that the people who died for me won't have their sacrifices be in vain.
[survive for as long as he needs to, so that they'll be remembered as heroes who gave their lives to protect japan, and not the idiots who died pointlessly for someone who wasn't worth it.
...]
Once that's settled, though... like you, there isn't much else I need to do, I suppose.
[which is not something he admits outright to most, if anyone else at all here. but he gets the feeling that saber, of all people, is not about to be like YIKES THAT'S A MENTALLY UNWELL WAY TO THINK SIR.]
[ it took me rereading my previous tag to realize you weren't saying he wants to return for alcohol because i had forgotten what i had written.
but saber will simply nod at that because, honestly? it's like that. saber still remembers their previous conversation about trying to live life peacefully once the fighting is over, and the struggle that comes from being forced to adapt. ]
but, well. yeah. if you devote your existence to a greater cause, the harsh reality is that you're inherently someone with no place in it once it's achieved. that's probably something they can both understand.
also this is a great question that i don't have a canon answer to but given that uruha never mentions any/they are clearly not enough of an incentive to want to live—]
[which is probably the mindset that created this quandary in the first place, but at this point, what's left but to focus what you're good at, rather than trying to fit a square into a round hole...]
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I don't think he'd have even set down this path if his father hadn't been murdered... so you're right.
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... and, of course, for your own.
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[survive for as long as he needs to, so that they'll be remembered as heroes who gave their lives to protect japan, and not the idiots who died pointlessly for someone who wasn't worth it.
...]
Once that's settled, though... like you, there isn't much else I need to do, I suppose.
[which is not something he admits outright to most, if anyone else at all here. but he gets the feeling that saber, of all people, is not about to be like YIKES THAT'S A MENTALLY UNWELL WAY TO THINK SIR.]
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but saber will simply nod at that because, honestly? it's like that. saber still remembers their previous conversation about trying to live life peacefully once the fighting is over, and the struggle that comes from being forced to adapt. ]
Mm. [ ... ] Any family?
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but, well. yeah. if you devote your existence to a greater cause, the harsh reality is that you're inherently someone with no place in it once it's achieved. that's probably something they can both understand.
also this is a great question that i don't have a canon answer to but given that uruha never mentions any/they are clearly not enough of an incentive to want to live—]
None worth mentioning.
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but that's fair, and the answer doesn't surprise them, all things considered. ]
Unsurprisingly, death does not bring us any answers, huh?
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Mm. All we can do is focus on what we need to do.
[which is probably the mindset that created this quandary in the first place, but at this point, what's left but to focus what you're good at, rather than trying to fit a square into a round hole...]
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[ they look around. ]
Come, let's try to get out of here.
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Yeah, can't say I love it here. Let's go.