he is at the bar! he's not making himself hard to find, but he's also not approaching anyone this week either. sometimes you just do not know who wants to see you ]
[ the vibes from trial that were kind of a swirling mess are more obvious and worse now. guilt, a sense of failure, and self-hatred. gross. get it together, yves. there's some confusion when saber just comes to sit next to him ]
The one thing you should be criticized for is doing it before we were able to confirm if she was involved or not this week, but it still worked out in the end.
... I know that we are all searching for the best possible ending here, with the least amount of harm done. But a path like that doesn't mean that there will be no harm.
[ they pat him on the shoulder. ]
You are a good man, even if it does not feel like that is the case for you.
[ . . . being called good baffles him right now, the same way that it completely boggles him that some people can call him good or righteous for killing a friend in his last moments too.
even so... he doesn't shrug off the hand ]
... I appreciate you saying so. Maybe... I'll be able to believe you eventually.
[ . . . is he beating himself up? maybe. he is quiet, thoughtful between answers because he's trying to really soak in saber's words. he doesn't want to brush people off now that there's nothing else to do ]
But you have made yourself important to quite a few people here, so I hope you know you'll have people to talk to. Even if what you're talking about hurts.
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he is at the bar! he's not making himself hard to find, but he's also not approaching anyone this week either. sometimes you just do not know who wants to see you ]
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[ they will hop onto a seat next to him, setting their sword down. ]
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... Saber? I can move if you want.
[ so they don't need to deal with him ]
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Yves... I have been saying we should kill them since the first trial. Why would I be upset?
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I don't know. I guess... I expected some things.
[ like people suddenly hating him ]
You're right. Sorry to doubt you.
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[ but they will still point that out. ]
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... I can't believe I was already late.
[ he really thought he was getting ahead of it ]
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Having to do it twice was likely too much for her at that point.
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[ ugh. he just rubs at his face again, exhausted ]
I just... hate that she had to go through that. I hate that I didn't ask sooner.
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[ a pause, and they sigh. ]
I know that nothing anyone will say will make your regrets go away. But it is easy to have them when you are looking backwards.
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insane
but... well. yves does respond to reason, at least. it's true that his guilt about his friend won't go away but. ]
... I guess you're right.
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[ they pat him on the shoulder. ]
You are a good man, even if it does not feel like that is the case for you.
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even so... he doesn't shrug off the hand ]
... I appreciate you saying so. Maybe... I'll be able to believe you eventually.
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[ that's just how it is sometimes. ]
I just hope you won't beat yourself too much over doing something that was, objectively, the best course of action.
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... I'll try not to.
[ a beat ]
Thank you for talking sense into me, Saber.
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Well, only time will tell if I did or not.
[ emotions are complicated things. ]
But you have made yourself important to quite a few people here, so I hope you know you'll have people to talk to. Even if what you're talking about hurts.
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Ah... I'd rather not force anyone to be near me. I know it was a tough thing to watch, and scary for people not used to violence.
[ so it's why he's keeping his distance ]