yves

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[rippled]

You always are.

What did you answer, by the way?

[noirges]

About redemption? Do you mean for the three questions, or the last one?

[rippled]

The last one.

[noirges]

I answered yes... with a caveat.

[ looks thoughtful ]

I think I earned redemption as someone who has learned to accept the love that I receive, and think that my life can be worth living even if I judge myself harshly. And... that even if I'm not convinced I've earned redemption, I would still say yes anyway because there are people I love that I want to be with.

So I did my best to be honest, even if it's honest in my selfishness.

[rippled]

... I see.

I think he would have liked that answer.

[noirges]

[ smiles ]

Regardless, it's mine. Whether it's like or not.

Can I ask you the same question back?

[rippled]

Oh, I answered no. I do not think I deserve it at all, but it was granted to me, so I must move forward with it.

[noirges]

[ he just

huffs out a breath. he's not super surprised based on glimpses of conversations they had but... ]

... can I ask why not? Even now?

[rippled]

I don't think anything I do here can make up for what I've done while I was alive, Yves.

[ it's a nice thought, but they are realistic. ]

[noirges]

[ he nods... well.

he gets that too. it's only two months ]

... then I'm glad that Gabriel disagreed with you.

[ very openly ]

I'm glad that you'll get to keep living anyway, and I hope that one day you'll feel like things could be even a little bit more balanced.

[rippled]

Thank you.

[ it's not like they can argue against that. the verdict was given. ]

I, at least, won't waste what has been handed to me.

[noirges]

[ expression softening and pulling saber into a hug ]

I never thought you would.

[rippled]

[ hug... ]

You really are a touchy person, Yves.

[noirges]

I'm going to be honest, I think the first week here really made it worse.

And then people kept allowing it from me, so I kind of just kept it up...

[rippled]

Oh.

You got greedy...

[noirges]

[ even as he's resting his head against saber's ]

I really did. I don't know how I achieved redemption. I think I've only gotten more greedy and selfish over time.

Gabriel is probably too nice to admit I got worse.

[rippled]

... I think wanting more for yourself is not a bad thing.

You deserve to take care of yourself, Yves. You are going to run yourself ragged.

[noirges]

[ . . . ?

now he's surprised. weren't they just teasing about how greedy he is... ]

... I keep being told this but...

Well, I'm trying to get better. I just... want to make sure people do know that there's someone who cares for them.

[rippled]

You have made that very clear. You were kind of annoying about it, at times, if I'm honest.

[ before they... got used to being around him... ]

[noirges]

[ laughs!! ]

Thank you for your honesty. [ he accepts it so easily ] I wish you'd said so earlier, if it bothered you.

I can imagine it can be overwhelming for people. Even so... I'd rather be safe than sorry about it, since some people are so bad at hearing it.

[rippled]

[ to be fair they also thought elysia was annoying. so there's that. ]

Especially with this group...

[noirges]

[ IMAGINE THINKING ELYSIA IS ANNOYING

SABER

I UNDERSTAND YVES BUT I DRAW THE LINE AT THE PERFECT WOMAN ]

Right?

[ just

wow.......... ]

[rippled]

[ elysia struggled so hard at befriending saber it was so funny ]

It was getting kind of ridiculous.

[noirges]

[ yves didn't even realize they weren't friends for so long he's so stupid he just kept going... this is how he was with adolphe.... ]

I do like to think a lot of people have gotten better by now... Or I hope so anyway...

[rippled]

... at the very least, they all have friends no, if they didn't before.