[ sometimes, you just keep losing and losing people, until eventually you are ready to make any desperate attempt to finally get something to work.
and, well. that does not address what saber said, but the sentiment still hit nonetheless. saber has been truthful that they are fine with having to do things like that because it is what they are used to. would they still prefer not to? yes. absolutely yes. but they will still do it without complaint. ]
... I'd rather it be me than someone else. [ ... ] Friend, hm?
We were friends when you decided to attack me, weren't we?
[ Don't get too cocky.
But- he doesn't know. It's weird. It's not like he thought Saber was necessarily wrong, or that they derived any joy out of helping kill him. It was really a petulant sense of... you don't care about me. Which is childish, but isn't that what the feeling of betrayal really is?
Saber though... despite that, and his behaviour, still wants to be here. ]
And we still can be, since it seems like that's what you want.
but it also seems like claude is just kind of bad at saying what he wants. ]
But it is quite simple. I like you, and wish to continue to be your friend. I apologize for attacking you, and I am not seeking forgiveness for what. I just want... a path forward, for us. If that is okay.
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and, well. that does not address what saber said, but the sentiment still hit nonetheless. saber has been truthful that they are fine with having to do things like that because it is what they are used to. would they still prefer not to? yes. absolutely yes. but they will still do it without complaint. ]
... I'd rather it be me than someone else. [ ... ] Friend, hm?
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[ Don't get too cocky.
But- he doesn't know. It's weird. It's not like he thought Saber was necessarily wrong, or that they derived any joy out of helping kill him. It was really a petulant sense of... you don't care about me. Which is childish, but isn't that what the feeling of betrayal really is?
Saber though... despite that, and his behaviour, still wants to be here. ]
And we still can be, since it seems like that's what you want.
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[ it's muttered.
but it also seems like claude is just kind of bad at saying what he wants. ]
But it is quite simple. I like you, and wish to continue to be your friend. I apologize for attacking you, and I am not seeking forgiveness for what. I just want... a path forward, for us. If that is okay.
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Lifts his brows. ]
You like me... huh.
[ I like you too, despite everything. ]
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instead, they will just smile. ]
Then we will figure it out. Just tell me when you need space.
[ thank goodness. ]
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I will.
[ ... ]
But first, I want recompense.
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[ they nod, agreeing easily. ]
What do you want?
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they clear their throat. ]
Right... I am Yamato Takeru.
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Are you blushing?
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[ yes. ]
I was expecting you to suggest hitting me or something.
[ one day their thoughts won't immediately leap to violence but today is not that day. ]
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I'm less interesting in hitting you than I am learning about you.
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... I am a bit of a famous figure in my country's history, so I have not advertised my identity too much.
[ watching trial when the topic came up was so embarrassing ]
Not that it matters for people outside of Japan, but, ah...
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[ NOOOO ]
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[ Hehe ]
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[ their life is just horribly depressing. that is so awkward to stumble on in a book. ]
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That's kind of embarrassing...
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And you're cute when you're shy...
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I will not listen to your ulterior motives.
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No. Come get food with me.
[ the best way to soothe a spirit ]
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[ haha yay ]
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